Basketball

So tonight I played in my first intramural basketball game.  I knew it would not be pretty because I had not dribbled or shot a basket in 2 years.  Little did I know that was the least of my worries!  We played 2 halves with 4 on 4 (so no breaks after quarters, no timeout breaks, and no subs).  At half time I thought I was going to die!!! I had never felt like this ever before in my life of playing sports and being an athlete.  My chest was on fire.  Usually my body gives out first or my breathing is a little labored but never this.  I felt like I had to throw up and was close to passing out and did I mention that my chest was on FIRE!!!!  I am so mad and disappointed in myself but I ended us telling my team that I could not go back in and play.  I am so upset with myself... I cannot even put it into words.  I gave up on myself and on my team and nothing can take that back.  It wasn't even giving up in private, the refs saw it, the score keeper saw it, the other team saw it, my husband saw it, and my team saw it.  We had no subs so the team had to play 3 against 4.  I was so selfish but I keep running it over and over again in my head and I really think I would have either A. Thrown up on the court or B. Passed out on the court each of which would have been mortifying as well.  I still do not know if I picked the better of the evils.  I ended up coming back about half way into the the 2nd half and helped them a bit but not enough to win.  I just fell mortified, embarrassed, just horrible about tonight and the worst part is that we play again on Sunday.  Now I am freaking out about if this will happen again or if my body will be able to push through not to mention having to face my teammates again.  All of this has just run home that  I need to workout and get my body in shape.  I have never thought I have been that bad but this has proven it to me.  BLAHHHH I just want to scream at myself for letting myself down and others over something so stupid that should never have been an issue if I just took care of my body!  Well that is enough ranting for now.  Hopefully someone can relate to this out there.